(De)spare
Bradley S. Rees
Discordant themes from broken dreams,
Intertwined: they haunt the mind.
Mutinous subconscious processes
regurgitating duplicity
As accusations of infidelity resurface in dark pools of memory
Drenched in putrid stench of guilt.
Malevolence apparent beneath the guise of mingled
Hurt and disbelief once worn by
Trusted companion.
Feelings of self-loathing and diminished sense of worth
Ingrained through years of verbal and emotional abuses
Dealt by hands simultaneously cold and caring.
Seeds of mistrust sown and reaped accordingly,
Fruitlessly attempting to show proof of my veracity,
My selective innocence.
Diversionary tactics recognized too late;
Scrambling and reposturing all in vain,
Preoccupied and oblivious to the obvious-
BLATANT-
Disloyalty of the other involved-
CONSUMED-
In conflagration of overflowing lust-
With none to spare for me.